Your 1 year older.....

Happy Birthday, your 1 year older and now officially a grown up....

hope you act like one too......

thank u, for you care n friendship.....

something i value......

Karambunai beach.....

Beaches, one of the most favorite places that i like to go to........

every time i went to my hometown at Kuala Terengganu, i would ask my tokki tu bring me

down to the beach, no matter how hot it was or how short the time i would be able to be there

even for just work, or just a drive through the area...........

i'm just drawn to it like a moth to fire, but it doesn't destructs me.......

i was thinking of going to Karambunai after i finished my diploma.....

a place where i can refresh my self, to find my self back.......

i read about it from a novel, aA+bB.......

Life

is like a roller coaster sometimes you'll be at the highest point of your life and one day you'll be

lying on your back wondering what you did wrong.......

He's Just Not That Into You

An interesting and true theory about men, women and relationships. I love this story, especially

Alex and Gigi in this story, two opposite people who hold different opinions on life, love and

relationships between men and women.

Gigi the girl who dreams of the love of her life and seeks it in every men that she meets and

hopes that their the One that was destined for her, making mistakes, wrong turns but never

giving up hope. Alex the guy who sees women as something that is expandable, something

that doesn't matter too much for him, as they say there's a lot of fish in the water, if you

miss one there's plenty where they came from. Their path crosses through that they became

friends, conspirators and finally fall in love.

Yes, Gigi was Alex's exception.

So, whose your exception???

Is it the one whose been trying to get your attention???
The person that seems to so cold towards you???
The one you've been hoping that he'll notice you after all these years???

Have courage and just confess your love, and if He/She likes you then good for you,

If not.........................

Then at least you tried and you can move on from that feeling and never knowing whether
it was meant to be or not???

Personality Type......

Your Profile

You are an ENFP (Extravert, iNtuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)

ENFPs represent between 6 and 8% of the U.S. population

Curious, energetic, adaptable, and creative, ENFPs like considering unconventional approaches. They enjoy batting around ideas and finding creative solutions and are energized and intrigued by new possibilities and anything out of the ordinary. ENFPs tend to be talkative, enthusiastic, playful, and generally fun-loving people. Warm and caring, ENFPs have strong personal values upon which they base most decisions. Conversations with ENFPs can be very circular as they excitedly move from one topic to the next, making connections and associations.

Unconventional and occasionally irreverent, they pride themselves on their uniqueness and originality. Optimistic, and spontaneous, ENFPs have a strong sense of the possible. For them, life is an exciting drama. Because they are so interested in possibilities, ENFPs see significance in all things and prefer to keep lots of options open.

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• Health Care / Social Service

Why this Industry is Right for You

ENFPs are drawn to health care and social service because they like people – Extraversion (E), get satisfaction from helping others – Feeling (F), see how their actions are part of a more global mission – Intuition and Feeling (NF), and enjoy the often unpredictable, day-to-day activities in this field – Perceiving (P).

Health Care Professional

Description Regardless of the specialty, ENFPs are “mission-driven” – Intuition and Feeling (N & F), like to make people happy – Feeling (F), and get energized by working with others – Extraversion (E).

• Dietitian/nutritionist

• Physical therapist

• Public health educator

• Occupational therapist

List of books I have read:

From Danielle steel:

1. Full Circle
2. Secrets
3. Family album
4. The Accident
5. Sisters
6. Miracles
7. Bungalow 2
8. Amazing Grace
9. Once in a life time
10. The ring
11. To love again

Julie garwood:

1. The castles
2. shadow music
3. shadow dance
4. killjoy
5. mercy
6. heartbreaker
7. slow burn
8. murder list
9. ransom
10. the wedding
11. prince charming
12. saving grace
13. the secret
14. the gift
15. guardian angel
16. the bride
17. the lion's lady
18. honor's splender
19. rebellious desire
20. gentle warrior

Judith Mcnaught:

1. a kingdom of dreams
2. whitney my love
3. until you
4. miracles
5. once and always
6. something wonderful
7. almost heaven
8. paradise
9. perfect
10. night whispers
11. remember when
12. someone to watch over me
13. double standards
14. tender triumph

Jude Deveraux:

1. Holly
2. forever and always
3. velvet promise
4. velvet angel
5. mountain laurel
6. highland velvet
7. the duchess
8. the temptress
9. the princess
10. the river
11. legend
12. caroline isle
13. first impression

Sandra Brown:

1. Charade
2. french silk
3. breath of scandal
4. ricochet
5. smoke screen
6. heavens price
7. Thursday child
8. the rana look

Places I want to go......

gazing the stars from a high place, a dark night that shines with lights, life and excitement.....

the wind breezing through, the city pace goes through a slower mode.....

a slight rain, the smell of natures perfume......

hehehe....... i used to dream of becoming a writer, i love languages.....

what makes us difference binds us together for it completes us, as two halves as one.....

Just bored.....

Boring day, classes are just tedious and boring.....

Catering gets better every class not that's its boring ( truthfully it kinda is ) hahaha......

sorry la sir, no offense but i hate morning classes and doesn't fit my schedule, as if i had one

even if i had one, i wouldn't let it rule my life...... i want to live with my terms not by someone

else's, but it's hard since most of my life was already decided by my parents........

luckily, i had enough guts to make a change in my life, if not i'd be still at the same place

not where i am now, not growing, not learning and knowing more about this vast world.....

lucking through the world on my terms and views makes me more independent and mature

just a little but it's better than nothing, right?

Looking forward for the upcoming reunion, hopefully all my old friends will be there.....

Songs.......

Upwind - Garden Sister

Using a unique keyword
I search the world
I want to find a place
To decorate my announcement

There are a lot of stored dreams
Don't care if someone steals them
I only feel one thing
I'm really, really, really hurt

The dark night, the upwind, the drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care at all
At all...

I don't care about others opinions
I just want people to notice me
You always point out the blind spot
Sometimes, it's really annoying

I already put away much of my faith.
When you're not here, it's hard to go on
I only feel one thing
You're really, really, really love me enough

The dark night against the wind and drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

For every decision,
I'll choose to follow the difficult path.
Every timethat you gave up on me
When I suddenly turn around, You're still there following me.

The dark night against the wind and drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

Yes, Why should I care when I have someone around me who accepts me for who I am and not what I should've been

Tokyo Juliet - OST song

Upwind - Garden Sister

Using a unique keyword
I search the world
I want to find a place
To decorate my announcment

There are a lot of stored dreams
Don't care if someone steals them
I only feel one thing
I'm really, really, really hurt

The dark night, the upwind, the drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care at all
At all...

I don't care about other's opinions
I just want people to notice me
You always point out the blindspot
Sometimes, it's really annoying

I already put away much of my faith.
When you're not here, it's hard to go on
I only feel one thing
You're really, really, really love me enough

The dark night against the wind and drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

For every decision,
I'll choose to follow the difficult path.
Everytime that you gave up on me
When I suddenly turn around, You're still there following me.

The dark night against the wind and drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

Love quotes.........

My favorite quotes from Nicholas Sparks :

1. "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It dose not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes." — Nicholas Sparks (A Walk to Remember)

2. "The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls were connected. Maybe they always have and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come. When i look at you, i see your charm and your gentleness and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And i know i have spent every life before this one searching for you. not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for some reason neither of us understands we were forced to to say goodbye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, And i promise to do all i can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly goodbye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time but for all the times we had before." — Nicholas Sparks

3. "While I sleep, I dream of you, and when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart." — Nicholas Sparks (Nights in Rodanthe)

4. "So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday."
— Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook)

5. "People want pretty much the same things: They wanted to be happy. Most young people seemed to think that those things lay somewhere in the future, while most older people believed they lay in the past."
— Nicholas Sparks (Nights in Rodanthe)




"Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you.
I'd been broken beyond repair."
— Stephenie Meyer (New Moon)

"A: The soul wanders in the dark, until it finds love. And so, wherever our love goes, there we find our soul.

Q: It always happens?

A: If we're lucky. And if we let ourselves be blind.

Q: Instead of watching out?

A: Instead of always watching out. "
— Mary Zimmerman (Metamorphoses: A Play)

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

How have you been

How Are You Lately? - S.H.E


Pick up a Christmas card
Fill it with best wishes
Address it to the heart
Can you receive it?
Weather is a bit cold, wind is a bit strong
The city is quiet with the noise
This winter
I have to go home alone

Ask myself if I've gotten used to it?
The nights without you
The echo becomes so loud
Is there a good way
To quiet the loneliness

How are you lately?
Are you also struggling inside?
You said you would remember me, remember?
How are you lately?
Are you busy? Does your heart still hurt?
If you have to, forget me
Quickly head for your happiness

Regardless how much I care
I don't have the right to ask
Ex-lover's greetings
Are more awkward than a stranger's
Yesterday is far, tomorrow is long
Memories are blurry yet huge
The tears in this dark night
How to stop them from falling?

Ask myself if I've gotten used to it?
The nights without you
The echo becomes so loud
Is there a good way
To quiet the loneliness

How are you lately?
Are you also struggling inside?
You said you would remember me, remember?
How are you lately?
Are you busy? Does your heart still hurt?
If you have to, forget me
Quickly head for your happiness

How are you lately?
Are you also struggling inside?
You said you would remember me, remember?
How are you lately?
Are you busy? Does your heart still hurt?
If you have to, forget me
Quickly head for your happiness


Is an Ex-Lovers greeting is more awkward than a strangers greeting?????

for me it's true, it's so awkward I'd would try my best to not contact my ex cause

it will bring up the unhappy memories that i left behind and how my words may

have hurt him, which is something that I'll have to live with the rest of my life

But I've moved on, moving on but not growing up...............................

no matter how hard I try to overcome it, I was never ever able to put it behind me and

bury it, it just causes more pain leaving me with a scar that never seems to heal.............

Maybe one day when I'll find that special someone who can help me overcome that

phobia that keeps growing in my heart...........

Bitchy me.........

A friend once told me, if you wanna be bitchy be the real thing and never look back,

which is a hard thing to apply since I was never a real bitch but time changes a person

so, I try to apply it in real life which kind a sucks and back fired at me..................

so, I am moving on to the next new thing...... I apologized to the victims of my bitchiness

transaction and let's just say it was never meant to be..........

looks like the silent treatment is the most suitable method for me......................

which may not have much affect but it's good enough for me.................

But I had such a horrible feeling of being the bad guy for once and i dread the

future as what comes around always goes around.........

but I accept the punishment He has for me because He's the one who knows me best

and He would never give me test that I can't carry or that would burden me.........

one of my dearest friend told me that, when I was in high school because she knew

the real me, not the me I display to other people, Bless you Nik n Mcdah for having me in

your life, no matter what horrible things I've done in the past you still accept me for

who I am, and our friendship is something I cherish above all others......

If you ever read Rooftop Rant by Hlovate, she qoutes '' sometimes strangers feel like

family, and family feels like strangers '' well that's how I feel you are my family

because you're always there when i need you and support me through all my insecurities

which is load............. the distance between us will never waver our ukhwah............

I can't wait for the upcoming reunion, hope both of you will attend it, and bind our ukhwah

forever.......... I may not be the nicest person that you know but I'm just a person who

makes mistakes and try to learn from them..........

If you have any words of advice just comment me............

InsyaAllah I'll try to become a better me, with His help and willing nothing is impossible......

nothing lorh.......

serving class...... semester 3......

first time become waiter...... before that i was the Supervisor of the Day....... with Masturah..... we had customers from UUM doing masters in Tourism...... most of them are Vietnamese.......


my first customers..... who weren't very fluent in english which is fine since i get nervous everytime i have to speak in english...... the lady in pink gave me, my first tip..... which was only rm5 that i still kept it till now as a remembrance of her...... she even asked for my number which was kind of weird and made me flustered for a minute......

just reminicing the past......

this morning we had law test which was kind a gard since i never paid attention to her class, everytime i go to her class i would end up sleeping and only waking up when someone wakes me up.... literally i fail to remember anything that she teaches me, only this week class i didn't sleep and undertand it, my secret weapon was................. '' Padi's Mp3 was playing tunes at my ears so good for me ''.... called my mother that morning before going to test ( which is kind a tradition for us )......... miss my mum.....

I was informes by mcdah that there was going to a reunion held at the Putra Palace at Perlis for MATRI's LPM student on the 10 of Oct. 09, which is the same date with our MPG night.....
mcdah's hoping my attendece there..... we haven't meet for almost i year i think.....