tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76471603245416945872024-03-14T13:45:52.671+08:00My Words, My Say, I'll do it My Way~Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger197125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-47126791026672278792015-08-11T23:00:00.001+08:002015-08-11T23:00:54.696+08:00A new start, maybe, hopefully,<br />
Its already almost near the end of the year,<br />
Not much has changed, status, occupation,<br />
But little changes and new growth are making appearances,<br />
A family dispute, building new bridges,<br />
I need to open up more to my dad.<br />
I need to share my feelings to him more.<br />
Its hard because I'm so used to holding back on saying somethings.<br />
And I usually don't talk much, so its makes it very hard for me to share it out loud.<br />
But I'll try to be better. HopefullyUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-74139285005084571382015-02-22T23:25:00.000+08:002015-02-22T23:25:48.061+08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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For me it's a place where I envision that I'm there with someone,</div>
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Someone who sees may flaws and mistakes as part of who I am,</div>
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And accepts me the good and bad part of me without judging me,</div>
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I just hoped that time would pass quickly and sometimes pause occasionally,</div>
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So, that when the time is right, I'll know what to do and how to say it,</div>
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It's like building a sand castle by the sea, you never know when the sea will wash it away,</div>
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The time is standing still right now for me,</div>
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The clock pauses, and here I am trapped in the moment,</div>
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Seeing other people passing by and moving forward,</div>
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-24007107112875183302015-02-22T23:24:00.001+08:002015-02-22T23:24:35.273+08:00Can I say it?I'm a girl with no ambition either in my career or life,<br />
I'm tired of being mature and agreeable to other people,<br />
Can I just say it out, I just want to be spoiled like any other person,<br />
To be wanted as others are wanted,<br />
To be cherished by another.<br />
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I sometimes wish that my future that lies ahead of me is something I can handle.<br />
No more surprises, the so not gentle persuasion of getting me thinking about marrying me off to the next suitable candidate that comes by. Maybe, I'm just a nuisance in their happy & perfect life together. A flaw. I won't open up to you again. never, ever say that you want to sell this house that stores all those memories I've had with my mom here. I'm never going to leave, no matter what you do. This place is the only place where I can breathe, the only place I call home. It's you who should leave.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-8075306112593162402014-08-17T03:18:00.001+08:002014-08-17T03:18:27.956+08:00It's been a while, while I'm hiding from the world, the world keeps spinning and growing but I'm hidden in my room. I want a beautiful dream, maybe I don't deserve it but I want one.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-91024749257296459932014-03-06T01:55:00.000+08:002014-03-06T01:55:05.445+08:00I'm officially missing you!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Need I say more?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-90716485420096889842014-01-22T02:22:00.001+08:002014-01-22T02:22:58.892+08:00Just a quick rant,<br />
OM Books are soooo expensive at Kinokuniya or whatever their name is..<br />
The book that I was looking for was like RM399 ++ and it's just a novel,<br />
sucks being a fan of international authors,<br />
looks like I'll have to wait for the next big bad wolf sale here~ Sigh~Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-13941221428216801862013-12-22T03:02:00.001+08:002013-12-22T03:02:26.092+08:00Something that I ask myself everyday<b style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: center;"> "Somewhere Only We Know"</b><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: center;" /><br />
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I walked across an empty land<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I knew the pathway like the back of my hand<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I felt the earth beneath my feet<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Sat by the river and it made me complete<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Oh simple thing where have you gone?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting old and I need something to rely on<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So tell me when you're gonna let me in<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I came across a fallen tree<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I felt the branches of it looking at me<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Is this the place we used to love?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Oh simple thing where have you gone?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting old and I need something to rely on<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So tell me when you're gonna let me in<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />And if you have a minute why don't we go<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Talk about it somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />This could be the end of everything<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So why don't we go<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Oh simple thing where have you gone?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting old and I need something to rely on<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So tell me when you're gonna let me in<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />And if you have a minute why don't we go<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Talk about it somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />This could be the end of everything<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So why don't we go?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So why don't we go?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Ah-ah-ah<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Ah-ah-ah<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />This could be the end of everything<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />So why don't we go<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Somewhere only we know?<br style="border: 0px none; font-size: 1em; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" />Somewhere only we know?</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-36231861498902565322013-12-17T04:28:00.000+08:002013-12-17T04:28:30.777+08:00New addiction.Yes, I'm still unemployed ( by choice ), I know that 's bad but I really needed the break,<br />
The contract work that I had was stressful, who thought that going to different states for research was a walk in the park, simply my mistake for taking things lightly. Which resulted to hormone imbalance that resulted to not having my period for three months, that caused me to have 22 long days of blood flowing out the drain. Finally, after taking a break at home I can say that finally my body is back to normal ( what a relief ). Since, health is a very important aspect in life I'm gonna take my time in looking for future opportunities. Oh, since I got addicted watching Startling By Each Step drama which was a remake from a novel by Tong Hua, I got addicted to reading Chinese novels, since I can't read nor speak Chinese to save my life, I can only read it through other people's translation in English. So far the novels are quite interesting, even if it is in a realm that is filled with immortals and what not's, it certainly has it's own flair and charisma that draw one in it's story. I know I'm being ridiculous but it so fun to read them. Let's just say that English novels always have thriller and romance but Chinese have history, depth, the romance is sweet yet there's something extra to it. Read it for yourself to experience it. Recently, I find that Malay novels are to mellow and it's too predictable sometimes bordering to cliché plots that are typically used too often. Moving on, hopefully more updates on the novels that I'm reading. Happy, Happy day!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-82871716198496415062013-11-30T01:22:00.001+08:002015-02-22T23:26:33.783+08:00sometimes I wonder why am I here right now,<br />
why I'm still alive in a world that is so cold,<br />
just waiting for each day to pass in hopes one day I'll pass with it,<br />
unwilling to live yet unable to die,<br />
can't smile, can't laugh, can't cry,<br />
can't live or die,<br />
I just want a warm hand to hold to,<br />
I'm not perfect still living with no warmth is too hard,<br />
sometimes I want to scream & cry,<br />
why this family, why that father, why that step mother, why did she have to die,<br />
so many things i've tried to let go, still they bound me<br />
can't i live peacefully. i really miss her. who can i confide to everything. i want her.<br />
even in my dreams i cant see her. mom.<br />
living is too hard with so much resentment in my heart.<br />
sometimes waking up feels like a torture.<br />
i just want to fall in a deep sleep and never wake up.<br />
let go of me life<br />
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But, what if we weren't able to shed them,<br />
Would those burdens that had always been on our shoulder grow heavy?<br />
Would our heart always feel like an open wound that keeps hurting,<br />
Emotions can rule a person's life,<br />
Why does it feel so empty and dark at the same time,<br />
Why does happiness seems to out of reach,<br />
Can I grasp the future that I want,<br />
Can I hold onto what I want right now,<br />
So many questions left unanswered,<br />
Broken yet never mended,<br />
Tears of joy, regret but can't be shed.<br />
I can only carry them until I've found it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-25902227808744750172013-11-15T05:49:00.003+08:002013-11-15T05:49:44.881+08:00Affliction to the heart.I don't know if people know or not about this,<br />
I haven't lived my life,<br />
I lived in the stories that I read, knowing fully well life is never kind.<br />
Finding bless and happiness in little things are so hard that most people take them for granted.<br />
I'm happy living like this, safely living in my room no one can reach my heart and I no longer need to guard it.<br />
I know the saying where you have never lived until you've loved,<br />
I don't know love but disappointment is something I'm familiar.<br />
So, I'm living like Liu He. Playing the fool, yet accepting everything that is destined like Liu Fu Ling.<br />
Hoping to be as forgiving as Yun Ge and move forward.<br />
I no longer have the affliction nor ambitions to be someone who I can't.<br />
I shall reside here until left forgotten.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-62314290242911267462013-11-14T01:26:00.000+08:002013-11-14T01:26:14.964+08:00Full circle.I've just finished re-watching and re-living the drama startling by each step or aka bu bu jing xin, it's an adapated novel from Tong Hua. So, hopefully I'll be able to read the novel version of it soon after finishing the current one I'm reading which is Yun Zhong Ge another novel by Tong Hua. Which actually is a Chinese novel, luckily I found a website that translates it in English, I really love reading period novels, it has a very novel feeling and you can just let your imagination run wild with it. Even though I'm currently unemployed (fun) still I found websites that allow me to study other languages there fore taking this chance to learn mandarin since I love watching their drama, why not take up the language as well !Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-48196744262314732162013-11-09T23:31:00.001+08:002013-11-09T23:31:18.477+08:00RespectThere's a movie called the freedom's writer,<br />
There's a scene in the movie where the teacher says that in order to get respect, you have to give respect. So, here I am at a junction whether to dislike this person, the person who made me shed some tears, who undoubtedly made many of my loved ones upset. Respect that was given out of the status that she held, the person that she become in his heart, it made all the things that I sacrificed, all the things that I've done to support them seemed in vain. I wish that I am going somewhere very far away right now, for knowing the words that have been spoken were so crude, why try tarnishing a person who no longer walks this world with those words. What wrong that she had committed to be slandered like that, it pains me very much to even share a roof with this person. Patience is a virtue that doesn't seem to be owned by many people, and it seems I might run out of it soon. I'm praying and hoping that I'll lose my strength to close this chapter and move on from it, give me strength to carry on.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-79152273589762641632013-10-18T02:50:00.004+08:002013-10-18T02:50:52.975+08:00Making a choice and sticking to it for life seems very hard to do,<br />
Being pulled and called to different paths can be so challenging,<br />
Sometimes I wonder off the path that is true,<br />
Only to realize I've lost my way and returned to the starting point,<br />
Encountering thorns and shards of glass along the way,<br />
Made me hurt and pained with no one to blame,<br />
I did it to myself,<br />
Who am I to promise or pledge,<br />
That my heart or words shall not waver as they may,<br />
With the future no longer in my hands,<br />
I pray and weep with everyday,<br />
For hope no pain nor hate shall I undo to another..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-34887995131136142662013-10-14T01:11:00.002+08:002013-10-14T01:11:21.837+08:00Looking forward~Finally, I'm out work!<div>
Should be, oh no work :(</div>
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Yet, spending time apart from family is definitely hard.</div>
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Missing them, yet refusing to communicate with them.</div>
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Odd right? Being mature and childish at the same time. Hehe.</div>
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Anyway, looking forward to watching dramas all day long.</div>
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And hopefully a new job.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-62267344518473500402013-09-21T04:34:00.001+08:002013-09-21T04:34:24.459+08:00Memories of today can determine the future,<br />
Looking back in time in search of things that we are willing to change,<br />
But, in fact it is already a reality,<br />
No matter how hard we try to undo the past,<br />
Nothing will ever change even if we will it with all our might,<br />
What we change is the present,<br />
Still lingering thoughts and memories will always sway your heart,<br />
Even though I remained unchanged as season pass,<br />
Should you see from afar,<br />
Yet, in heart so many thoughts keep weighing it down,<br />
A smile certainly can disarm a person's thinking,<br />
When looked from another view,<br />
Those exteriors are all just affront,<br />
To keep you at bay,<br />
My world is dark and cloudy,<br />
It rains and pours, still no shine,<br />
How I wish to break free from this life,<br />
But walls and fortresses weren't build overnight,<br />
While tears remain unshed,<br />
Passing smiles are easier to be dealt,<br />
Live life in now or ever,<br />
This path I grow weary with all that's left,<br />
Words left unspoken are the one's that echo's,<br />
In mind and thought are empty no hope,<br />
As I aimless go throughout this life,<br />
No joy, no tears shall I greet in time.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-21293730459689028072013-09-13T02:05:00.001+08:002013-09-13T02:05:32.260+08:00Forgetting~People always forget about the things that they have in life until it is suddenly taken away from them.<br />
When it's too late to say words that should've been said earlier, but we keep making excuses for not saying them. Like saying I love you to our parents, Thank you for bringing me up. Things that we find embarrassing to say them out loud and assume that they know what truly lies in our heart. People aren't mind readers for sure, if it were true then there'd be no sadness or war in this world. We believe that words doesn't have the power to move people, yet when we read about people's story we feel what they are trying to share in their writing ( or is it just me? ). I miss my mother the most, I can't say them out loud. I fear that those words once said can lead to other things. I really don't like to upset other people with my words or actions. Emotionless as I seem to other people, only I know the truth on what I feel. I can't say them out loud, it might burden others, it would probably make me feel weak. Which, I am. With some people I can open up and tell them about things that happen around me but true feelings are so hard to be expressed. Sadness, happiness will just pass by like season's change. Subtly changing without notice. People do to. Happiness is near yet far at the same time. Grasping for it, still slipping out of my hand all the time. Certainly a state of mind, happiness that is. Smile, laugh, smile some more, laughing again till one day when things will just come naturally to you. Forgive me for rambling here, age certainly changes one's perspective in life.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-18007742928553495812013-08-18T01:57:00.002+08:002013-08-18T01:57:33.552+08:00Equals.Have been receiving invitations to my friends wedding,<div>
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But to find someone who is an equal to you,</div>
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That's the thing everyone's finding or maybe it's just me.</div>
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How silly it might seem for others,</div>
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For me that's something I've dreamed for a while in life,</div>
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Who doesn't want to have someone who will stand together with you throughout life,</div>
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The one who accepts for who ever you are in the past, present and future.</div>
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Here I am the one who always talks about love and what not.</div>
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Forgive me for always not being able to say them out loud.</div>
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But, never give people hope on a future that you can't provide.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-35941696475813338532013-08-03T03:28:00.001+08:002013-08-03T03:28:52.236+08:00Happy belated birthday to me!A close friend of mine gives me a notebook every time I reached a certain milestone,<br />
A birthday, graduation and many other things.<br />
In return I also do the same things,<br />
We are quite similar in some ways,<br />
And I just realized that with every book that I've received marks a new chapter that I'll embark in life.<br />
Maybe our way of thinking on life are equally the same.<br />
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I thank her and cherish our friendship the most out all the relationships that I have.<br />
The one who was always there for me through the rough patches,<br />
The one that I can always lean on and give me support when I need it.<br />
Thank you friend.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-42179940577566152902013-05-26T01:12:00.001+08:002013-05-26T01:12:35.333+08:00<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 15.454545021057129px;">Sometimes we forget how we arrived at this point in life. We tend to put the difficulties and hardship that we had to go through in the back of our minds. We only take the many fond memories that we have and the many experiences that we gained. And move forward without taking a glance on what we left behind. Still, being in the present. The past that we think, we had put to rest comes to question in the present. Remember that the past doesn't define who we are now. It's just a simple explanation on how we got there. So, embrace the past, look forward into the future and smile. Life is full of the unexpected, so take it step by step and day by day, who knows what awaits for you there!</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 15.454545021057129px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 15.454545021057129px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 15.454545021057129px;">So smile, shoulders straight, chin up and take a step towards a better future, a better person.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-68295547472315600222013-05-24T22:55:00.003+08:002013-05-24T22:55:23.317+08:00A working progress chapter 1 comes to an end !Phase one in Negeri Sembilan just ended yesterday,<br />
School holiday just arrived today,<br />
Yesterday I was in Seremban,<br />
Today I'm at Terengganu,<br />
Currently staying with my grandpa & grandma.<br />
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Owh Terengganu,<br />
A place I call heaven,<br />
For all the delicious food that I keep eating whenever I'm here,<br />
Well the only bad side effect would be that,<br />
Owh my tummy,<br />
And owh there goes my weight sky-rocketing high.<br />
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I'm not that slim anymoreeeee~Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-21718499794554402142013-05-17T04:52:00.002+08:002013-05-17T04:52:37.218+08:00I am that girl,<br />
The girl that made so many mistakes in life,<br />
Stumbled down when life throws me out of balance,<br />
Cried out her tears till there were no more left to be shed,<br />
Relied on others till I realize it's holding me back,<br />
Depending on others rather than standing proud on my own,<br />
Still.<br />
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Later,<br />
That girl received confidence,<br />
Had a change in perspective,<br />
That brought a new light in her life,<br />
Here I am,<br />
See me,<br />
The one who thought I was lacking,<br />
In the end was only me,<br />
Being too independent can be a weakness to,<br />
Closing my heart to others seems right,<br />
Not wanting to get hurt was just hiding behind walls,<br />
Creating tall and wide walls,<br />
Only made me realize,<br />
No one can escape from being hurt by others,<br />
So,<br />
Open your heart so that others can do the same for you,<br />
Smile as much as you can,,<br />
So that others will smile with you,<br />
And life will never be the same in your eyes.<br />
Embrace the pain as it'll only make you more stronger.<br />
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So,<br />
Smile, chin up,<br />
Look forward to what the future has in store for you!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-45561610095382197962013-05-16T00:29:00.002+08:002013-05-16T00:29:55.013+08:00My Mum, My Love, The One That I'll miss the most after HIM & Our Prophet.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My Mum,</div>
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The One that gave birth to me,</div>
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The One who always encouraged me to do better,</div>
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The One who wiped away my tears,</div>
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The One that had such a beautiful heart,</div>
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The One that I admired and want to resemble like her.</div>
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Mum, </div>
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Even though you are no longer with me,</div>
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You still live my heart and smile with me,</div>
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That always appears in mind whenever I feel down,</div>
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I'll always feel that I've never told you how much you meant to me,</div>
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And how sorry I am for the times that I made you cry.</div>
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I hope the relationship that I had with my mum,</div>
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Is something that I'll have with my Mother in law,</div>
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I really miss having someone fussing over me when I'm sick,</div>
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Who will listen to all my worries and tell me that everything's gonna be fine,</div>
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Tell me when I've done something wrong.</div>
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So, To that person out there,</div>
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I hope you're close and have a great relationship with your mum,</div>
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Appreciate her while she's still with you,</div>
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Memories are things that will blur as time pass by,</div>
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Love them while you can.</div>
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I love my mum, </div>
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Where ever you are,</div>
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Hopefully will meet again in Jannah.</div>
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InsyaAllah.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-28911861485126614692013-05-13T01:10:00.001+08:002013-05-13T01:10:17.669+08:00A working progress Chapter 1<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Currently working as an enumerator for the Nutrition Society of Malaysia.</div>
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It may not be a job that pays big bucks,</div>
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But it is a job that'll provide invaluable experience to me,</div>
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If in the future I was to continue in my studies,</div>
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So, it's kinda of planning ahead,</div>
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Plus, I get to travel & stay 3 different states over a period of time,</div>
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Without having to worry & fuss about accommodation & transportation,</div>
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Which is provided by them,</div>
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Luckily I love what I'm currently working for,</div>
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While enjoying every minute of it with great company too.</div>
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Meeting & talking to children that are still pure & honest in their words,</div>
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It reminds me the innocence that I once had,</div>
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Hopefully, Still have till now,</div>
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Which differs to the teenagers,</div>
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Who are more playfull,</div>
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Still, They are all cute!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7647160324541694587.post-5407125255126519182013-04-14T00:30:00.002+08:002013-04-14T00:30:12.091+08:00New path in life~Nervously counting the hours before going to Seremban,<br />
A new journey in life and a new chapter has begun.<br />
Quite far to start a new phase in life,<br />
Please pray for my safety there,<br />
Hopefully I'll have the strength to stay strong in the path that I choose.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0