My Words, My Say, I'll do it My Way~

Monday, May 31, 2010

Status : Single

I'm single,
I don't appreciate being called a Janda,
we had had a relationship,
we ended it,
we broke up,
we moved on,
we're trying to be grown ups,
it's hard on me,
since i care,
i really really cared for someone,
and these feelings are hard to erase,
i'm trying to get used to the idea of being friends,
deep down i know,
i have a long road to go,
an ending means a new beginning,
i just need time,
more time,
because time heals all wounds rite..

Sunday, May 30, 2010

A trying day but I'll live~~

early morning at the lake,
i see old faces and new faces mix,
i miss them all,
i cherish them now,
i smile shyly as we shake,
i follow you there,
you play and say,
i hope everyday will be the same,
we said goodbye,
with happy faces,
knowing one day,
we'll sail again,
through this voyage,
i hope and pray,
that someday,
i'll see you there~~

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Being single means that u’re pretty, sexy & u’re taking ur time deciding how u want

me being single,
doesn't mean that I'm not pretty nor sexy,
it just means that..

I'm taking my time to find someone,
who appreciates me for who I am,
who thinks I am important in their lives,
and knows what their getting into by being with ME~~

believe me,

if your not ready,
don't try cause I might surprise YOU~~

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Don't wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect.

azreel azhar said :
Don't wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect.

yes, seize the moment..
a woman who waits will be left empty handed??
I don't quite remember how that goes,
when you just wait for it to happen
rather then just take a chance
you'll never know
how it'll ever turn out to be

i took the chance,
seize the moment,
had the happiest time,
but maybe,
that was the only time that Allah
had allowed me to enjoy..

maybe our path was meant to cross
at that particular time only..
no more..
no less..

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

My friend~~

she asked me to pray for her..
and it goes like this ( it's in malay )

Allah Yang Maha Pemurah, Terima Kasih…
Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan aku dengannya.
Terima kasih untuk saat-saat indah yang telah kami nikmati bersama
Terima kasih setiap pertemuan yang telah kami lalui bersama
Terima kasih setiap saat-saat yang lalu. Aku datang bersujud pada-Mu,
Sucikan hatiku ya Allah,
agar dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencana-Mu dalam hidupku.
Ya Allah, jika aku bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,
janganlah biarkan aku merindukan kehadirannya…
janganlah biarkan aku melabuhkan hatiku di hatinya.
Kikislah pesonanya dari setiap pelusuk mataku,
dan usirlah dia dari relung hatiku
Gantilah damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini,
dengan kasih dari dan pada-Mu yang tulus dan murni.
Bantulah aku agar dapat mengasihinya hanya sebagai seorang sahabat.
Tetapi jika Engkau ciptakan dia untukku, ya Allah,
satukan hati kami…
Bantulah aku untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerima dia seadanya
Berikan aku kesabaran, ketekunan, dan kesungguhan untuk memenangkan hatinya.
Urapilah dia agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan menerima aku dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangan sebagaimana aku yang telah Engkau ciptakan.
Yakinkanlah dia bahawa aku sungguh mencintai dan rela berkongsi suka dan dukaku dengannya.
Ya Allah Maha Pengasih,
dengarkanlah doaku ini…
Lepaskanlah aku dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendak-Mu.
Allah Yang Maha Kekal,
aku tahu Engkau sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik buatku,
luka dan keraguan yang aku alami pasti ada hikmahnya.
Semuanya ini mengajar aku untuk hidup lebih dekat dengan-Mu,
untuk lebih dekat dengan-Mu,
untuk lebih peka terhadap suara-Mu yang membimbing aku menuju jalan terang-Mu.
bimbinglah aku untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan.
Jadikanlah kehendak-Mu dan bukan kehendakku yang terjadi dalam setiap hidupku, Ya Allah

Monday, May 24, 2010

i dunno..

what i know:

i keep remembering the past not the present
there's somethings in life
that no matter how much
you want them to happen
but it doesn't

i have a dream and that dream
now seems so far fetched
so impossible to achieve
i can't will it to happen

so, i'll just leave it behind
at the back of my head


someday we'll know~~

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I'm out of words..

yes, as a person
we always try to improve ourselves
to better ourselves
but somewhere in the middle of the road
you find yourself at a junction
you have to choose between two roads
uncertainty can confuse you
but you have to pick one
you pick the easy road
the road you know can lead you
without any hitches or mistakes
but you'll never now
what you missed out
when you took the easy route
the escape route
you didn't have the courage enough to face it


you simply forgot that there's always people
who would support you
and your decisions
and respects you for them

people learn from their mistakes
you grow up from them
and become more mature with time
but you know
some mistakes
you can always make them right

p/s: I say I'm out of words but I doubt that!! hahahahaha~~

Saturday, May 22, 2010

some love quotes that are kinda interesting..

1. people differ in the way they show love.

so be carefull.

because sometimes we already had their BEST.

but still we choose to break their hearts. :))

2. if god gives you someone to love and care about,

dont hold it to tight.

so when he asks you to give it back,

its easy to let go without hurting so bad :))


Thursday, May 20, 2010

Shontelle Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

yes, go ahead and tell them..


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now~~

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.


Monday, May 17, 2010

Put the past in the past please???

can i put it behind???
i hope so..

Monday, May 3, 2010

wishing on a falling star..

i heard this song a long, long time ago..
the lyrics are a bit blurry in my mind..
but it goes like this,
wish you on a falling star,
wondering where you are,
do i ever cross your mind in a warm sunshine..
i just want to spend some time with you,
is it bad?
or is it just not a good enough reason for you?
i heard this phrase from a show,
and it goes like this,
I fell in love with you,
the you that i thought i know,
but the you now,
i no longer know,
i miss the old you,
but you are you..
but am i still the one you fell for?