A new start, maybe, hopefully,
Its already almost near the end of the year,
Not much has changed, status, occupation,
But little changes and new growth are making appearances,
A family dispute, building new bridges,
I need to open up more to my dad.
I need to share my feelings to him more.
Its hard because I'm so used to holding back on saying somethings.
And I usually don't talk much, so its makes it very hard for me to share it out loud.
But I'll try to be better. Hopefully

When you see this picture what pops into mind?

For me it's a place where I envision that I'm there with someone,

Someone who sees may flaws and mistakes as part of who I am,

And accepts me the good and bad part of me without judging me,

I just hoped that time would pass quickly and sometimes pause occasionally,

So, that when the time is right, I'll know what to do and how to say it,

It's like building a sand castle by the sea, you never know when the sea will wash it away,

The time is standing still right now for me,

The clock pauses, and here I am trapped in the moment,

Seeing other people passing by and moving forward,

While I remain in this same spot,

Can I say it?

I'm a girl with no ambition either in my career or life,
I'm tired of being mature and agreeable to other people,
Can I just say it out, I just want to be spoiled like any other person,
To be wanted as others are wanted,
To be cherished by another.

I sometimes wish that my future that lies ahead of me is something I can handle.
No more surprises, the so not gentle persuasion of getting me thinking about marrying me off to the next suitable candidate that comes by. Maybe, I'm just a nuisance in their happy & perfect life together. A flaw. I won't open up to you again. never, ever say that you want to sell this house that stores all those memories I've had with my mom here. I'm never going to leave, no matter what you do. This place is the only place where I can breathe, the only place I call home. It's you who should leave.

It's been a while, while I'm hiding from the world, the world keeps spinning and growing but I'm hidden in my room. I want a beautiful dream, maybe I don't deserve it but I want one.

I'm officially missing you!

Need I say more?

Just a quick rant,
OM Books are soooo expensive at Kinokuniya or whatever their name is..
The book that I was looking for was like RM399 ++ and it's just a novel,
sucks being a fan of international authors,
looks like I'll have to wait for the next big bad wolf sale here~ Sigh~

Something that I ask myself everyday

                                                      "Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go?
So why don't we go?

Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?